back to post again. =D
finally got some time fer me. =]
let me update this few days things. recall~~

Thursday,september28.2006
didnt went to sch =D. heard dat my class only 13~14 ppls came? =/ lol. went to parkway to do my arts. heng,tong and me waited at inter fer limei like abt 1hrs? ==" as she last mins joined us. =DD yoshinoya is like our house laa. =X me and heng do our art dere, so messy. limei and tong study and do theirs maths dere. blablabla~ tired and we went to walkwalk, relax awhile.. go see dogs! =D saw our sch teachers faster run away, but thay still saw us. =/ blablabla,, decide to go to tong house downstair to contiune study, heng went hm as he's sick. we bought alot of yumyums like pinic? ==" eat and do our stuffs tgt. he ringed me =/ so surprise to heard his voice. =/ lalalaas~ jiayou to you too! =] lalalas.. went home.

Friday,september29.2006
went to sch and i wake up late again la ==" kekes xD woke up late fer this one whole week. zzz' but den i still slowly do this and dat. still not late fer sch. =P i need someone to wake me upp la! who willing to help me =/ xD. finish sch,, got parent meeting, waited fer tong's kor to come. haha! her sec kor act as my cousin =X blablabla~ thanks alot desmond! =DD so touch la,, Mdm karani say im her good art student. =]]]] say art cfm can pass. =D i dunwan jus a pass at least b3 canns? =[[ she noe i gave up on maths and poa =/ LOL! ask me to talk more and ask more Qs say i always keep quiet and alone down dere. =X im zipi? xD im not la, jus dun really like to talk. zzz. den went to parkway again ==" blablabla~ went home.

Saturday,september30.2006
was so moodlesssss ;[[ donnoe wad happened.wadever~ tong and heng came to my house to study again. and! da sky started to rains~ COOL! =/ i finally finished one of my mounting board =X slow laaaas! heng already done 3. ccb so fast =X LOL! he pro la.zzz' i was so super quiet and didnt really talk much, i really felt so stress can ;'[[[ hai~ im so stuck wif my art, i dunnoe how to go on,, not im lazy kaes, I'M STUCK! ='[[ anyway, no one understand. =/ feel so fucking stressed and went to online to cool down,, lalala~ i went to bed, thay didnt even notice. ==" blablablas.~ went to interchange around 8plus to meet yuki den decide to go to longjohn. actually didnt really wanted to go interchange de,, but im sososo worry abt yuki laa! wanna see her. saw her hands ;'[[ its fucking hurts me,, i cant image how she done it. sad~ when walking to longjohn,, heng talk to me. he say im like so-different today, =/ when im in sch wearing uniform im like more xiao haizi and more crazy. when im at homee im like so quiet zzz' dats da real me la,, im a very quiet person. in sch its a different matters cos got alot frens you see. ==" zzz even tong also say im different. =/ lalala~ im like dat la, i don talk much. sorry, dats me. till now u all den noe? ==" reach longjohn, i start to do science,, and omfg la! alots thinggs i donnoee and i done de Qs mostly wrong. ==" FUCK ! i really feel like dyingg man,, wads going on inside me. zzz" soooo arggggs! i wanna kill myself cans! ='[[[[ alots of things dunnoe,, arts left alot fucking to do. ='[[ cann i giive up on everythings? ...zzz' i really wanna jump down from da every top floor! on da way home,, keep thinking dunnoe wad da nb i thinking.. nearly get bang by motor =/ i really hope da fucking motor can drive faster and bang me into da air and my fucking brains jus pop out of my head and im dead! WOOOOOOTSS! end of my story; my fucking life. thanks neko fer pei-ing me. loves~ lalalas. reach home,, and contiune on my arts. hai! im so stuck! ='[[[ who will be dereeee? when i need someone to talk to. ='[[ only da fucking 4 walls im talking to. alots of words jus cant and hard to say out. deres is always no one,, everyones is busy and filled up wif theirs own lifes, things and problem. its okay,, i understand. anyway, im like kinda used to it. who cares. and i slp all da ways,, jus like im fucking dead.

Sunday,October01.2006 [ today.]
its da first day of oct, which means O'slvl is fucking getting nearer. zzz' wdf! jus fucking faster get over its kaes! and voooooom! im off to end everythings with a fucking fullstop, i don cares abt da outcomes cos im jus a fucktards. =/ lalalas.~ 11oct getting O'slvl art paper2. i jus cnt stop doing da nb arts. omgggg,, why did i choose art as da first place. zzz;' feel like tearing eveythings away! =/ dats so much fucking art to be done, to be drawn. arggggs! fucked-up arts, fuck subject; fucked life. zzz' ='[[[ da moment i wake up,, start drawing and drawing.. on da ways of my second mounting board. 6 more ccb board to go, wdf cans! ==" arggggs! lala,, wadever.

i fucking need someone by my side now ='[[[ hai~
deres' always no-ones. im fucking no ones.
BLAHS!

p/s:
*to neko: im so-gandong. ='[[ thanks alotss my girl.
*to yuki: hope you're allright by noww,, we're so worry about you. stop doing dos fucking things to yourself,, it not only hurts yourself, it hurts us too. ='((
*to tong: try not be so e-mo kaes, try to say out things dat in ya heart. its all right to cry, you'll feel alots better! trust me,, deres alot ppls beside yaaa.. don't worry. i hope you're really all rights.
*my hp is finally down; spoiled after using fer around 2yrs. ==" and now im using yuki extra pinki fone. zzz' so gay~ anyway, ya peeps still can contact me thru fone fer da time being i guess.
*good lucks and jiayou fer ppls who is taking N'slvl starting from tml. work hard! =] all da best.

i so fucking feel like crying out now. ='[[
peeps, im not all rights!
everythings is going wrong,
i wanna give up everythings!
i'm so stressed-up.
='[[[[
life is jus being so sucked-up.
can anyone kills me pls!
FUCK ! = it explains everythings dat im feeling now!
='[[[[[[ ! arrrrggghs!
anyway,, i'll be all rights i guess.
atleast fer dos peeps dat i loved.=[